Speechless

I have always wanted to tell you things that are in my mind.I want to tell you and share those feelings together...This is what I always wanted to do but,was never being able to achieve it in real life.

Probably because I'm not being honest with myself which has caused things to turn out like this and has not made much progress with you. I don't know why but, I tend to say things that I really don't mean it or saying the opposite of it instead. So if I say I don't care, I really do care.I say I'm fine when I'm actually not.

I don't know why I do it, but probably because I know if I go serious with you, it will be difficult for you to reply. Therefore, I rather not to be honest to myself than to see you troubled over me. Some day, I hope you can discover this side of me and we can share those deep feelings I have in my heart together. To be honest, I want you to know... I really want you to know! ><