At the beginning of this year, I had the "love rush" where I couldn't control my feelings of her anymore and had to tell her. Before doing so, I have made a bet to myself and say that I'll go serious and express my feelings truthfully to her which I have kept for 3 years; if she accepts my feelings then I'll officially ask her out. Therefore I did my confession and exchanged my feelings with her. I was so happy she felt the same way about me, I felt that I could really give my heart to this girl... So as I was about to open my heart, someone told me something, something I did not wish to hear. The voice has echoed continuously... "If you date her now, you guys will never be together". I became scared and hesitated but I hoped that everything will be fine as it will all work out. I guess I was wrong....
Now that I have lost the bet to myself, I shall fulfill the bet I've made. If I failed the bet, then I'll close my heart and won't go serious anymore until I'll finish off high school. Of course I won't stop liking her, but it is just that I'll be her friend for now. I'll still answer those questions, even if she is there whether if she asked or others in the future but I won't do anything that will be off the friendship boundary anymore.
I didn't regret on anything but I'm just scared. I'm scared if I ask her again when that day comes, the answer will change... But I shouldn't think too much about it. If we are destined for each other, then no matter what happened, we will be together anyways. At least that is what I've believed and I'll continue to believe it.
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