Two sided

In my heart, there are two sides: the craving to love side and the considerate of her side. They are always in my mind to give me thoughts. Should I hug her? Should I give her a break? When can I date her? Am I not giving her any space? Those are constantly in my mind. I don't want to feel that way anymore; I feel so tired. I don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore. I wish if only that girl can tell me....

I hate it when they makes me goes back and forth in my mind. If only I have only one side, then I wouldn't have to go through all of this. I wonder if I only have the crave to love side, will I be with her by now?or if i only have considerate of her side, will I be feeling less awkward around her?

Probably I haven't heard her inside in a long time, I feel less and less secure because I don't know what she wants anymore. Not that I think she doesn't like me anymore or anything, it is just that I am scared that I will approach when she wants to have a break.

My mind does not know where to go anymore therefore, I want her to lead it again...
That's because it already wants her to lead it four years ago!! ><