Sorry

I'm sorry that I haven't talked to you much in real life and only depended on msn The truth is, I really really really want to talk to you. I love to talk to you; even one sentence from you can get me happy for a whole day. However, my mind goes blank whenever I want to you and resulted in not getting anything out of my mouth.

I know it's a bad way to talk through technology rather than real life, as I tried to encourage myself to talk to you everyday. But seeing you happily talking and laughing other people made me resisted. I'm scared I will bore you, I'm scared to I will make you speechless and I'm scared I will make you feel annoyed. It seems to me that you're not at ease when you're talking to me in real life, that's why I'm currently feeling bad and hated myself...

I wish in future, we can talk openly to each other face to face with laughter and smiles rather than to rely on technology. I promise I will definitely fulfil this task in the future, but for now, please let me say
sorry...