Dear you

I missed you, i really do. I wish I can say this to you but I just know that I shouldn't do it; for our sake. Have you realized I have tried my hardiest recently to talk to you as a friend?. It's hard; from the outside I have to act like a normal friend and to have to keep my feelings inside. There are so many things that has kept inside my heart buried and they can no longer be expressed by words. Watching other couples being together does hurt me a little, it reminds me of how we were before. I really do miss the old times, I really do miss you.

But just to let you know, I don't care about the past anymore. I Strife for the future now and someday I'll get you even harder than I did before. Of course, there is not 100% you'll still feel that way for me in the future but I won't be scared. I mean, I did the same this year without knowing your feelings in the first place anyways.

Did you know? I can feel that I'm finally changing at my own will now. Thanks to you :) I can definitely feel it and it feels so good. This feeling is warm and it makes me feel stronger.