Reactivated fb for a stupid reason. Trying to play with my friends on 'words with friends' which needed fb to be reactivated. Not only it didn't work for me but I also felt like shit. I regret reactivating after all. It felt like I have to pretend to be happy when talking to people. Not that it will be a big impact even if I become an active user again anyways. I wasn't too noticeable on fb anways.
To be honest, I really want to show my serious side to my friends like how I am in this blog. I felt more happy, more comfortable and more myself. But then, I guess it's impossible. Acting all serious will just make people think that I'm boring.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Stranger Part 2
Out of desperateness, I tried to start a conversation. After all, we have been sitting directly to each other for a while now and we haven't even said anything to each other yet. Isn't it a bit rude if you totally not talk to someone for a whole dinner? So the-normally-don't-start-conversation me decided to make an approach. Seriously, I'm a criminal for sure if I haven't. The girl is pretty and she also seem to be the type to who don't start conversations.
What troubles me Is~ I DON"T KNOW HOW TO MAKE AN APPROACH!!! many people who knows me can also tell I normally don't make approach to conversation first. This is an except, I know I'll regret if I don't talk to her. So what to talk about? *think* *think*. Wait.... yes! I remembered I saw her once in the city with her friend in a book store's manga section. So the first thing triggered my mind is~
I wish I can see her again and have another enjoyable conversation ^^
What troubles me Is~ I DON"T KNOW HOW TO MAKE AN APPROACH!!! many people who knows me can also tell I normally don't make approach to conversation first. This is an except, I know I'll regret if I don't talk to her. So what to talk about? *think* *think*. Wait.... yes! I remembered I saw her once in the city with her friend in a book store's manga section. So the first thing triggered my mind is~
"Do you read manga?"
Funny, I really find that hilarious. I can't believe I used that as a pick up line hahaha. Well, good thing she is fine with the question and simply say she doesn't read manga. Because of that, we were able to start our conversation. I got to say, it has been such a long time since I have such an enjoyable and relaxing conversation. Even if it is not the feeling of love, but the conversation made me really happy. I don't know if it is the feeling of love or not, but I have taken a little liking to that girl.
I wish I can see her again and have another enjoyable conversation ^^
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Stranger
Last Thursday started really stressful like always; school (double maths), then followed by 2 hours of maths tutoring. Every week, I will be so tired to anything after the tutoring except last week's. Our family had dinner with another 2 families, meaning I have to go straight there right after tutoring. Normally I wouldn't be too happy excited about it since having dinner at a restaurant on a Thursday is kind of frequent for us. Since it was right after tutoring, I didn't even have time to go home to change.
We arrived at the buffet with myself thinking it won't be a good dinner anyways. Of course, just as I predicted at the beginning. With adults sitting on one side and the kids sitting on the other, things started off pretty awkward. Because of the sit arrangement, I had to sit directly opposite to another girl and boy from one of the family. My sister was told to sit in the middle of the table, opposite of my side which leaves me with them.
I thought things will be fine if I just silently eat my own food. I mean, the other 2 siblings are too! so just like that, the 3 of us were just eating our own food. (the siblings don't talk to each other) It wasn't until, their gandma wanted to change sits. It was fine with me UNTIL!! the sit she swaped with is the boy's!! meaning, I sitting by myself with the girl directly opposite of me!! I swear, life sure knows how to make plots~
~Continue later~
We arrived at the buffet with myself thinking it won't be a good dinner anyways. Of course, just as I predicted at the beginning. With adults sitting on one side and the kids sitting on the other, things started off pretty awkward. Because of the sit arrangement, I had to sit directly opposite to another girl and boy from one of the family. My sister was told to sit in the middle of the table, opposite of my side which leaves me with them.
I thought things will be fine if I just silently eat my own food. I mean, the other 2 siblings are too! so just like that, the 3 of us were just eating our own food. (the siblings don't talk to each other) It wasn't until, their gandma wanted to change sits. It was fine with me UNTIL!! the sit she swaped with is the boy's!! meaning, I sitting by myself with the girl directly opposite of me!! I swear, life sure knows how to make plots~
~Continue later~
Goodbye my Internet life
Good bye to Facebook, LOL and MSN. I'm quitting to all 3. Simply because I don't want to regret later on in life if I continue to use them. Not like they have any help to my studies anyways. If I ever make it to university, I might use them once again. But for now, Takumii is dead on the internet.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Reason
Some people have asked me, "how can you be so normal with that person after all those things have happened?". They are referring to my past love issue. Well, I think its natural to act normal when you clearly don't feel that way anymore for that person. Its not like it matters anymore now. Why care so much if you have let go. Making a fuss over it just explains that you cannot let go still. To me, I personally think that people shouldn't be sad over the end of a relationship; at least be grateful that it happened.